|25 things about me...do you care?
||[Feb. 12th, 2009|09:38 pm]
i stole this from kambrieloktober|
1. I collect all things rare that are NBC (nightmare before christmas) and have a strange, yet unhealthy fasciniation with both Tim Burton and Danny Elfman
2. I secretly watch anime, code geass/maderana/ergo proxy/vapmire hunter d/princess miyu/etc...and i have to watch it alone, it is theraputic to me
3. I LOVE the sound of the ocean and the smell that accompanies it. Ther is something famliiar and lonely about it. I think i may have been an old seaman!
4. I have a HUGE fear of driving over bridges, i cannot drive over the coronado bridge without hyperventilating and i LOVE coronado. I have actually stopped traffic on the bridge to make david drive it!
5. I have serious anger management issues with always wanting break evil peoples kneecaps and blame it on being from philly, when in fact i just think hurting people who hurt those i care about should feel the physical pain accompanied with that they caused emotionally!
6. I am a neat freak, however ever since i have had liam, i find it hard to stay on top of things like i use to. The cats and thier free roaming litterbox drives me crazy, i secretly think of opening the back door to let them leave...;(
7. I do not trust easily and do not often allow people or invite people to my home. If you are invited it is beacuse i hold you in the highest regard and find you EXTREMELY trustworthy.
8. I collect all things Olivia and think her view of the human form (for females) is provactive and beautiful.
9. I know all the bands and songs from 1979 thru 1994 and can usually tell you the year the song came out, the album it came out on and what i was doing at the time i first heard it.
10. I never wanted to be married or have kids. I always doubt myself as both a wife and mother and find that sometimes it impedes my ability to be fair and resiliant as both.
11. I lost my children for 5 years and didn't see them for that time or speak to them. I officially won custody and child support on them both after a 10 year batter on February 3. 2009!
12. I have such love and compassion for my husband and truly believe he is my soul mate. From the moment we met I have always talked to him and we barely have ever slept apart since we started dating. We kept our relationship a secret for about 2 months as to not make people think we were doing something they may have cared about.
13. I have had a nervous break down almost 7 years ago in August this year. I found out after trying to kill myself that i was pregnant 1 month later. I always worry I may have done something to hurt my son.
14. There has been a HUGE change in my disposition over the last year where I am finding much more inner peace within myself and trying to right those things that may have caused pain to others. I am learning to understand the need of suffering and not wallowing in it and becoming a much more spiritual person within myself.
15. I want to travel the world with my husband and live every day like we just met.
16. I have been married 2 times, the first was a mistake. I have always wished that David was my first and only.
17. David is the only person who can and could talk me down in any situation, to this day i still ask myself when getting to the point of no return in my braind, WWDD? What would david do?
18. I have seen bad energy and channeled to form a harm to myself and family. I believe in ghosts and all things beyond our realm. I believe in reincarnation and that we as humans have little to no humanity left and this powers those spirits that wish us harm or simply wish to contact us. I have seen and talked to my dead grandfather as well as, my children have at one point all seen him in the house.
19. My favorite food is sushi and i do not eat seafood except for maguro!
20. I have a mathmatic and science mind. It must be explainable. Everything follows a sequence of numbers for me. I see math in everything. I can count cards, remember numbers forever and can tell you serial numbers off of albums i have owned (i owned at one point over 6000 albums)
21. I owned over 6000 albums. David and I own over 3000 cds and a ton more DVD's.
22. i long for the touch of my husband everyday, it literally makes the hair on my arms stand on end, it makes me feel beautiful.
23. I do not believe i am pretty or beautiful, nor do i believe i am ugly. I feel that I am average and abnormal at the same time.
24. I believe i will die, alone and with dementia and alzheimer's
25. I love the smell of formaldahyde, funeral homes and churches.